This whole playing at being a pancreas thing does take up a lot of time. Changing infusion sets, bolusing, carb counting, hypoing, they all eat away at my time. Normally it all fits in with my life and I don’t really notice it. But every now and then it makes a bid to take over. I’ve just looked at my diary for the next few months and am wondering whether I should pack in work and become a professional diabetic. I certainly have enough stuff scheduled to fill my time.
I’ve just had to cancel my diabetic clinic appointment that I was due to go to next week. I really wanted to go because my pump is 4 years old next month so I need to get a new one ordered. Sadly though the day job is getting in the way of the diabetes. While I’m a full time diabetic I do also have a job. That job pays the mortgage, allows me to pay the bills, buy food, all that boring stuff. Plus I quite like it. The broken pancreas contributes nothing to the household income but expects a lot of time in return.
In addition to the day to day stuff, over the next 2 months I need to:
- Go to diabetic clinic – a big meeting that I need to be at in London next week means I can’t make my clinic appointment so that’s now postponed until early March
- See the chiropodist for my annual toe tickle to check my feet are still attached and working
- Have the usual joyous experience of going into the opticians with perfect vision and coming out feeling like I’ve been poked in both eyes with a blunt stick to make sure no unscheduled fireworks displays are taking place at the back of my eyes
- Sort a new pump and hope that I don’t have to argue for my funding to continue
None of which can be done outside of work hours.
Competing for the same time are two massive work projects, a couple of looming deadlines, a need to significantly reduce my team’s budget and a large collection of odds and sods that they pay me to deal with. Normally I can balance it but it just all seems to have come at once for some reason and I do resent having to choose between my career and my health. Of course, in reality I won’t choose. I’ll prioritise. So, I’ll go to the eye appointment because I don’t fancy going blind and I can’t check them myself. I’ll probably postpone the toe tickle because I can see and feel my own feet and they don’t look like they’re going to drop off any time soon. I’d rather not make that choice but I do quite like my career.
I’m starting to think we need a new awareness campaign “Diabetics have jobs too”, “Help the pancreatically challenged professionals”, “Pancreases are broken 24/7, so why do we only service them 9-5, Monday to Friday?”