This whole playing at being a pancreas thing does take up a lot of time. Changing infusion sets, bolusing, carb counting, hypoing, they all eat away at my time. Normally it all fits in with my life and I don’t really notice it. But every now and then it makes a bid to take over. I’ve just looked at my diary for the next few months and am wondering whether I should pack in work and become a professional diabetic. I certainly have enough stuff scheduled to fill my time.
I’ve just had to cancel my diabetic clinic appointment that I was due to go to next week. I really wanted to go because my pump is 4 years old next month so I need to get a new one ordered. Sadly though the day job is getting in the way of the diabetes. While I’m a full time diabetic I do also have a job. That job pays the mortgage, allows me to pay the bills, buy food, all that boring stuff. Plus I quite like it. The broken pancreas contributes nothing to the household income but expects a lot of time in return.
In addition to the day to day stuff, over the next 2 months I need to:
Go to diabetic clinic – a big meeting that I need to be at in London next week means I can’t make my clinic appointment so that’s now postponed until early March
See the chiropodist for my annual toe tickle to check my feet are still attached and working
Have the usual joyous experience of going into the opticians with perfect vision and coming out feeling like I’ve been poked in both eyes with a blunt stick to make sure no unscheduled fireworks displays are taking place at the back of my eyes
Sort a new pump and hope that I don’t have to argue for my funding to continue
None of which can be done outside of work hours.
Competing for the same time are two massive work projects, a couple of looming deadlines, a need to significantly reduce my team’s budget and a large collection of odds and sods that they pay me to deal with. Normally I can balance it but it just all seems to have come at once for some reason and I do resent having to choose between my career and my health. Of course, in reality I won’t choose. I’ll prioritise. So, I’ll go to the eye appointment because I don’t fancy going blind and I can’t check them myself. I’ll probably postpone the toe tickle because I can see and feel my own feet and they don’t look like they’re going to drop off any time soon. I’d rather not make that choice but I do quite like my career.
I’m starting to think we need a new awareness campaign “Diabetics have jobs too”, “Help the pancreatically challenged professionals”, “Pancreases are broken 24/7, so why do we only service them 9-5, Monday to Friday?”